Personally, things are settling down in a way that makes it easy to see that I have a lot of unfinished ends. Every now and then I feel as if I reach a point where I say, 'Now, will be where I start focusing on myself and focusing on the things that make me who I am.' Still, I never feel any closer to understanding what I am in this world. There is a feeling of being cut from a tether that accompanies these thoughts. As if a life-line has been detached and I am floating through space unable to build enough force to change my direction. There are so many things that I love that I don't feel any connection to. So many ideas in my head that are just going nowhere. Trying to figure out why I have this lack of motivation -or whatever it is- can be just as frustrating.
I feel as if I am surrounded by successful, talented people that are generally happy with their lives and that makes me wonder what I am doing wrong. But talking to anyone, it seems as if we are all feeling the same way. That gives me a little bit of hope to know that maybe everyone is trying to just figure it all out.